Illuminata of Darkness

I’m holding on your rope,
Got me ten feet off the ground
I’m hearin’ what you say but I just can’t make a sound.
You tell me that you need me
Then you go and cut me down, but wait
You tell me that you’re sorry
Didn’t think I’d turn around, and say…

That it’s too late to apologize, it’s too late
I said it’s too late to apologize, it’s too late

I’d take another chance, take a fall
Take a shot for you.
I need you like a heart needs a beat
But it’s nothin’ new
I loved you with a fire-red
Now it’s turning blue, and you say…
“Sorry” like the angel heaven let me think was you
But I’m afraid…

It’s too late to apologize, it’s too late
I said it’s too late to apologize, it’s too late

It’s too late to apologize, it’s too late
I said it’s too late to apologize, it’s too late
It’s too late to apologize
I said it’s too late to apologize
I’m holdin on your rope, got me ten feet off the ground

sometimes… people don’t think before doing silly things. and… it’s too late to apologize…

It’s never an easy way…..
……
Lord knows
Dreams are hard to follow
But don’t let anyone
Tear them away
Kuntjoro Hadi: it’s your destiny
Kuntjoro Hadi: you can not go away from your destiny
Kuntjoro Hadi: it’s your “call”
Kuntjoro Hadi: I warn you
Kuntjoro Hadi: It’s never an easy way…..
Kuntjoro Hadi: needs a hard work and dedication
Kuntjoro Hadi: you have to accept it
Kuntjoro Hadi: every time you meet a hard problem
Kuntjoro Hadi: remember that you have to go on… because it’s not an easy way
Kuntjoro Hadi: but you can
Kuntjoro Hadi: you have to believe… you can
Kuntjoro Hadi: when ever you are in doubt… when ever you are in big trouble… remember one thing
Kuntjoro Hadi: Dominus illuminatio mea
Kuntjoro Hadi: take all those words.. print it and put it some where.. in case you are in need… read it again and again
Kuntjoro Hadi: actually its not mine.. its yours

di suatu titik tertentu, ada kalanya saya merasa capek dan jenuh. capek akan keadaan sekeliling saya yg terlalu banyak intrik2 gak jelas. jenuh dengan hal2 gak penting yg akhirnya bikin saya males untuk bermain dengan imaginasi saya. giving up? nope… saya bukan menyerah, gak akan pernah. karena ini jalan yg sudah saya ambil, meskipun pada awalnya saya gak pernah berfikir akan seperti ini beratnya. sampai pada akhirnya saya harus benar2 menghadapi kenyataan, bahwa gak semua jalan bisa dilalui tanpa halangan.

saya, bukan termasuk manusia yg ambisius dalam segala hal. saya hanya mengikuti kemana “arus” saya ini mengalir. dan biarlah seperti itu adanya. bukankah semakin kita berusaha keras untuk “menyelamatkan diri”, semakin keras pula arus akan menarik kita untuk tenggelam? so… yeah… i think i’d better be calm and let it flow.

[ As a friend you've taught me to believe in myself, to appreciate myself, to trust myself, to accept myself. from you, I've learnt to be a friend to myself. thank you for sharing so much of your time, your standing... and so much of yourself. you are one in a million..... the angel ups in heaven must've sent you to be here... with me ]

Do you hear me,
I’m talking to you
Across the water across the deep blue ocean
Under the open sky oh my, baby I’m trying
Boy I hear you in my dreams
I feel your whisper across the sea
I keep you with me in my heart
You make it easier when life gets hard

I’m lucky I’m in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again

They don’t know how long it takes
Waiting for a love like this
Every time we say goodbye
I wish we had one more kiss
I’ll wait for you I promise you, I will

I’m lucky I’m in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
I’m lucky we’re in love in every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

And so I’m sailing through the sea
To an island where we’ll meet
You’ll hear the music, feel the air
I’ll put a flower in your hair
Though the breezes through trees
Move so pretty you’re all I see
As the world keeps spinning round
You hold me right here right now

I’m lucky I’m in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
I’m lucky we’re in love in every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

[ amazing. unbelievable. blessing in disguised. what a small world! glad to have you in my life. welcome to my world, the L world! LUSM xoxo ]